Yesterday was a whirlwind of emotions. A long-awaited, but needed, discussion on our relationship finally occurred and we reached a conclusion: right now is not the time. Although the feelings are still there, your family and career were priority right now. We had this discussion before where you had told me that you need a few years to work hard to support your family, your parents, and your sister. You needed to be the breadwinner of the family, and it was something you cannot escape from. Regardless of what I said, I knew the conclusion would turn out to be the same. You asked me to continue to be good friends; not the kind that message once in a while and see each other once a year, but the ones that actually talk and communicate and catch up often. That is, if I don’t mind. My mind had already told me to say no, but the words “I don’t mind” came out of my mouth as if my heart took over. I didn’t want to lose this relationship we already have.
As usual, timing was not on our side. Maybe if we had met a few years later, you would have an established career, and we would be able to spend more time with each other. Regardless of what our future looks like, I still thank you for allowing me to fall for you. You showed me that it is still possible for me to fall for someone else.
On another note, I am going to be a God-Mother.